When you are unemployed you think you will have so much time to do things.  At least I did.  And I suppose I do, but I am completely terrible at managing my time.  I get sucked in... "I'll just check this funny website/watch one tv show/listen to music a little while" I think.  And what turns out is I surf the internet for hours/watch a ton of TV/fall asleep whilst listening to the music.  So basically I'm a lazy bum.

I always feel vaguely guilty when Jeremy comes home from work and asks me what I did with my day.  He says he is just doing it to make conversation and is interested in my day.  Which, I believe him.  But I always feel terrible when it is like today:  "listened to music, fell asleep, watched some TV."  Some days I do more.... but meh.  I have terrible willpower.  I am trying to exercise it more, but most days?  Meh.  I post my comic, and that's about the only "useful" thing I do all day.

Yesterday was alright.... I did work a little on the website, and did a load of laundry.  That's some progress, right?

Blllluh.  Am trying to be a productive person since I lost the job.  I mean, productive at home, working on the website and trying to keep the house relatively clean, cook for my husband.  Not productive to society because honestly:  I have applied for a job here and there but have not tried seriously.

ANYWAY:  I totally suck.  The last week or two I do barely anything, post a comic a day (some of them already made long ago).  I watch stuff on netflix or fart around on the internet the rest of the time.

Boo-urns.

Well at least I've committed myself to making dinner for Jeremy tonight.

So it's Jenny's wedding today, and I am super pumped!  I actually used to hate weddings.  Or think I did, anyway.  I didn't realize the difference between being at a larger wedding where you don't know anyone, or a smaller wedding where you know a lot of people and/or are actually close to the bride and/or groom.  So I have loved all the weddings I've been to in the last few years, because I'm actually close to the people.

I also feel like I am contributing, which I've become addicted to.  I mean, on the day I don't need the couple to think "Oh Amy's awesome," or anything, but I do like having actually added something to their special day.

So for Julie & Lothar's wedding, the first one I liked, I was a bridesmaid.  I got to be in the ceremony, help plan the bachelorette party, and I guess this isn't exactly contributing to the actual day, but I made 1,000 cranes for them because you can wish for them to have a happy life together then, and gave that to them.  I also know that Julie likes Feng Shui and that sort of thing.  It was a pain in the ass but totally worth it!

I sort of feel bad that I didn't help that much with my sister's wedding, now.  I threw a bridal shower, but it wasn't that great because I was a college student and didn't have any money.  Plus no one liked the games or anything.  Oh and it was super stressful because my mom, my aunt, and my sister's female inlaws kept bossing me around.

Then of course was my wedding where I obv. did a lot for and super loved.  I also loved what everyone did for me, too!

Then at my dad's wedding I got to make the playlist for the reception (which I super love doing) and everyone loved it!  I also got to give a toast and people really liked it too!  Esp. my new step mom!

Now for Jenny's, I get to be an usher and vandalize her car!  To be honest, I wouldn't really like my car decorated, because then you have to go and clean it off afterwards, but the mothers of both the groom and bride really wanted it done so I have carte blanche!  Though I'm not sure if I should vandalize her car, Rob's car, or both of them.  I suppose I'll do whatever car I see!

So I went to a job interview yesterday wearing flip flops.  Yes, it was a tremendously stupid accident.  I just don't really think about my feet much, I guess.  I noticed it AFTER I was there and spent the rest of the time thinking "please please please don't look at my feet," and trying to walk without making the flip flop noise.

Also humbling:  last time I was at Sam's club I bought some baby wipes.  They didn't have grown up ones in stock and they are the same thing, basically.  And its way cheaper to buy in bulk.  I know who I am, I tell people who I am, I am the lady who has to bulk buy wipes because she has enough diahrea she gets chafed if she uses normal tp.  But I cracked 'er open today.  Did the package REALLY need to come with a free sample of diapers?  I died inside, just a little bit.

So things that have happened recently:

1)  I finally let Jeremy rearrange the living room how he wanted to.  I admit:  I am a freak.  I hate it when people rearrange things, at least my things.  But hell, once Jeremy was rearranging things in his closet and I got all weird on him.  I just don't like it.  Anyway the re-arrange is ok, the window is no longer blocked by the TV, which is a big plus.  I'm a little worried about the animals (bunnies are animals of routine and I'm worried he'll do his business where his litter box/cage USED to be, also it re-draws territory that Kirk thought was his, so he keeps chasing the bunny away from his cage & litter etc).  But otherwise, other than my hatred of change itself, it is alright.

2)  Dad had me come to his house and mark things I want to keep.  He's getting rid of things so he can move in with his new wife.  Again, I went into this knowing I would hate it.  However I didn't realize he had done the worst possible thing:  get rid of my stuffed animals.  Seriously... I'd be upset if he got rid of my books or something, but my stuffed animals?  I have this (completely illogical, I admit it) attachment.  I saw velveteen rabbit when I was little & Toy Story too many times after I was older.  They feel like people to me.  So it was bad enough when he said he gave them to goodwill.  It was 100 times worse when he said the ones that looked too worn (AKA the ones I loved most) he threw away.  I don't know how he thought I would be OK with this (he said we talked about it but I remember no such conversation) considering I've saved these animals thus far and am a 30 year old woman.  Why would I save them so long and then be like "yeah it's ok to throw them away."  I'm not mad at him, I'm a freak to be this upset, but I cried and cried.  I still feel horrible... it's like finding out one of your childhood pets was killed and thrown into a dumpster.  By someone you know and love, no less.

3)  Redesigned the website, working more on writing another little quiz/story.  It's fun, now that I have the coding down.  Of course I still have a lot to learn, I only really have the basics right now.

4)  Have an interview for a job at ISU on Thurs.  I kind of didn't want to get another job, and just work on the website, but I changed my mind.  You don't really earn much doing that and I still have bills.  Technically I could live off my savings for quite awhile, but it would be nice not to have to.  Hopefully even if I get a job I can still work on the website and stuff.  It would be cool if I could eventually get the readership I need to make a living without an employer but I think those people are a very lucky few.

5)  Saw Pauly Shore in Peoria!  It was really cool.  I didn't know if he would be good or not, I've only really seen his movies and that doesn't necessarily translate into good stand-up, but he was great.  I also liked the people who opened for him, Sandy Denton (he was actually even slightly funnier than Pauly, in my opinion) and a local guy who I unfortunately didn't catch his name, but was hilarious as well.  I also have a very blurry picture of Pauly, Sandy, my friend Chasity, and me (ch-ch-check out facebook if you want to see it).  The club owner didn't turn on the lights when people were getting pictures of themselves with him, how douchey is that?  But all in all, I had a good time with the weaaaaasel, bud-dy!   It was also nice hanging out with Chasity again, she was a work friend I hadn't really seen since I got fired.

6)  Been playing a lot of Cards Against Humanity, which is really fun.  Ben got it (I had been thinking of getting it when he turned up having it, so bonus:  I didn't even have to buy it or clutter up my house with even more games!)  it's sort of similar to Apples to Apples but it is specifically MEANT for humor, particularly darker or more raunchy humor... cards include things like "two midgets shitting in a bucket," or "Mecha-Hitler."

...and that's all I can remember.

A quiz I wrote to test out my skills at ChoiceScript

So today I came across a song from the 60's that I used to love (well still love?  but hadn't thought about for awhile).  It's funny, when I think about an oldie song, I never know if people I know will get it or not.  My parents were super old when they had me (Dad was like 42, my mom not that much younger) and they listened to oldies in the car when I was growing up.  Whereas I think most people my age's parents were more into classic rock.  Anyway, I try not to be suspicious, but I am, and I feel like running across this awesome song again is a good omen.  Also:  I love the fact that the shitty producers of this video spend more time showing the awful set than the guy's awesome two-necked guitar.  I also love the drummer guy stopping to play the tambourine while still holding onto the drumsticks.