So today was pretty craparoo but ended well.

First off, I got a sore throat last night. Sorer than my perpetual dry throat I have problems with, even. And ever since I got a flap of skin infected down there once, I'm pretty obsessed with actually trying to look in there (mirror + flashlight). And.... I had a weird bump on the roof of my mouth near the back of my throat (soft palate area if you are a biology person). Well, it turns out it was just a canker sore, which just goes away after awhile, but I can't figure out how I got the darn thing, I'm not one who's prone to them. But, I didn't know that, so I literally spent approx. 3 hours at a quick care doctor office (and I don't know how much money) to be told it was nothing. Oh, and to have him actually poke it a couple of times which made it hurt worse.

Okay, normally something like this would just be annoying, and I'd blame myself for jumping the gun, (though when I wait and it gets worse I blame myself too, damned either way) several factors combined to make it the perfect storm of horribleness.

1) Most importantly, I forgot to take my antidepressants. When I'm in withdrawal on that, tiny things can make me upset and have panic attacks.

2) I had a horrible, horrible, horrible headache and I forgot to take advil before I went, so I was sort of trapped there for several hours trying to get somewhere, anywhere that I could just take some frickin' advil.

Oh, and worse than waiting for the doctor (which did suck, but there were for some reason about a million people ahead of me, so I get it) was afterwards they made me stick around a half hour just to sign whatever paper they make you sign after they treat you. So... the fact that I wasn't really treated for anything and then had to stick around that long stuck in my craw. And it was cold. And I had the headache. And I started having a panic attack. See, Jeremy has cankers (it's not contagious so I can't blame him) and I looked it up on Web MD once (seriously that site should be outlawed. I can sit there for hours looking at it and being convinced that I am going to die) and one of the causes is crohn's. Which is similar to colitis. So.... fuck, this is just another regular thing I can look forward to in my never ending cycle of deteriorating health? Just like the crazy breastbone thing? Is my immune system going to systematically kill everything? Or just half of everything, and let other diseases get the rest because it is too busy attacking my own body? And I started thinking of how old people immune systems get bad anyway and together with that I'm going to get every horrible thing possible, including shingles which sound like the worst thing ever. And I thought of my grandpa's girlfriend who got shingles from being treated for Leukemia, and was like, oh fuck that new drug I'm going to be taking soon, an increased chance of leukemia is a side effect. So my immune system is going to suck cause it sucks anyway, then I'm going to get on these drugs which hurt your immune system more, they're going to give me leukemia, and then I'm going to fucking get shingles and/or die from leukemia. So this stewed in my head more and more (yeah, panic brought on by stupid antidepressant withdrawal, at least partially) and all I want to do is fucking get out so I can have any other possible distraction from thinking about shingles and take some goddamn advil. I seriously was about to sneak out.... I went to the bathroom, and was going to just leave if they hadn't gotten to me yet.

But they did. So at least I didn't break the law or whatever by leaving before I sign whatever documents saying that if I die because my canker sore was secretly flesh eating disease and he diagnosed me wrong, the office is not at fault.

So I decided to call off work, on top of all of that my bowels felt awful too (didn't really mention it because I'm so sadly used to it. And a headache that is literally as bad as it can possibly be without being a migraine is at least good for taking your mind off the bowel pain).

Anyway, by the time I got home, I was feeling a lot better. I stopped off and bought advil at meijer (which is really close to the quick care office) and by the time I got home was good. I get the liquigels which are super fast! And had had a bowel movement which made me feel better.

So I decided to surprise Jeremy by having a good home cooked meal on the table when he came home for work..... and he was not that impressed. Err, maybe impressed isn't the word? I mean, I don't think I should get a nobel prize or anything just for lifting a finger to cook, but I thought it would at least be a nice dinner together. However, that sort of fell through because (for reasons I won't get into because this is a horribly long post already, but that are totally justified), he was super angry at his cell company. And Jeremy doesn't get angry much, so you know they did something pretty bad. Anyway, he didn't take it out on me, but was in his own world and seemed to barely notice. He wolfed down the food so that he could get to the cell store before it closed. Regularly, I might find it a little annoying, but I was pretty sad due to already having a shitty day and then of course, the drug withdrawal.

Anyway, within a little while of getting back home he realized I felt bad and kept apologizing and saying that the dinner was really good. He gave me a really nice backrub, which was esp. good because my back was sore. We cuddled and watched a movie. It was Coraline. I had really wanted to see it when it was in theaters (it's based on a book by an author I like), but for whatever reason never got around to it until now. It is really, really good. Actually, way better than the book. The book is for relatively small children, and hence not that detailed or anything, so the movie was better. How often does that happen?

Speaking of movies, I wanted to mention the Switch which we saw yesterday. I really liked it. It's by the same people as Little Miss Sunshine. It is not as good as that, but sort of has a similar energy. It is sort of a romantic comedy, but it's almost more of a father/son bro-mance to me. Which, by the way, I sort of like. There are so many romantic movies out there, so I'm glad when there are movies that explore other types of relationships. Anyway, the kid was adorable. I don't even like kids, so you know if I like a kid, that kid is awesome. And Jason Bateman is actually a pretty good actor. We all know he does comedy well (Arrested Development, what what!) and this is a comedy, but there were emotional bits (which is kind of why I wanted to see it, I like movies like Little Miss Sunshine that can be funny but sort of have an emotional core to them). I think we're going to see Tom Pilgrim vs the World soon, too. Jeremy's been pretty hot to see it since we saw the trailer. And Michael Cera is in it (another Arrested Development alum, what what!) and he's usually pretty good. I mean, I actually saw his Youth in Revolt not too long ago and it was better than I would've guessed.

So one other awesome thing that happened to me that I never remembered to blog about this month: I got a trip to the emergency room. Really, it turned out as well as a trip to the emergency room possibly can. I did have a problem, they diagnosed it, it was easily curable.

I guess I had something (I can't remember the name) where my sternum had an inflammation. I guess it's mostly caused by physical activity, which is why one would wonder why I got it. But I guess another cause can be something like.... bingo, ulcerative colitis. Not only it is a shitty disease, but it's the kind of shitty disease that gives you other shitty diseases. Anyway, it's curable with.... advil. So, good times.

So... tomorrow I have to have a TB test. It's to see if I have TB (I really felt dumb writing this part of the sentence) because I am going to go on some medication that helps with colitis.... by killing my immune system. Well, partially. Hopefully the part that needlessly attacks my colon. But anyway, TB + killed immune system = death, probably.

I'm kind of nervous about it, actually (the drug, not the test). The drug has a lot of side effects, it seems. Including a higher risk for leukemia, it said. But, on the other hand, using it could lessen the risk of colon cancer. So who the fuck knows... But I need something, I've been missing a lot of work lately. That probably isn't the only serious side effect, I just got partway through and was like, "You know what, I don't even want to know how badly I'm fucking up my body to fix another part of my fucked up body."

So today was pretty full and pretty good. Jeremy's sort of been having cabin fever cause we don't often go very many places (I dunno, at one point I thought I was borderline agoraphobic, I just don't go that many places, and almost never anywhere if I'm not with someone.... but it might just be laziness) and suggested a trip to Champaign, which we actually had discussed at one point months ago and never did. I have to say.... I spent way too much money, but I had a lot of fun and it was worth it.

Champaign, for people who don't live in the area, is about the same size as the Bizzle Nizzle. I like to refer to it as "the Pain" whereas Jeremy likes to pronounce it the way Christopher Walken pronounces champagne on the SNL sketch the Continental. Though a smallish size, it usually has a little more going on than Bniz, partially because U of I is there and for whatever reason they attract better stuff than ISU. So we had orig. planned to go to one restaurant Jeremy had been to before, but it was closed. And some of the stuff U of I attracts was a no go, as the students are not quite yet back for the fall. But we still were able to fill it with awesomness.

First off, I got a new toy.... my GPS has been broken for awhile now, so I decided to just go ahead and replace it. They've really evolved... this one has some cool new features, and was about one third cheaper than my old one (and that's considering dad got the orig. on a black friday deal). It was nice to have in a town that I'm only semi-familiar with.

Then we went to Curtis Orchard. It was really cool.... We used to have this really awesome orchard near town, but it closed around when I was in high school because the owners were sick and couldn't maintain it. They sold it, and the new dick owners didn't want to maintain it either. So it was nice to go to another good one. They had some stuff for kids, like a petting zoo with... what seemed to be a very sick turkey. But he made the gobbling noise! Which made me happy! (Frankly, he seemed to have been rescued from a farm. The other turkeys and other animals in general seemed to be in good health). They had a lot of things I missed from the old orchard like apples, peaches, pie, apple donuts, cider, apple butter, honey straws, and a bunch of new things.... such as an apple cider slush, which was quite good.

Then we went to The Great Impasta, a tasty italian restaurant in the area. Not only was the alfredo sauce on my noodles tasty, but they were home made noodles, and you could really tell. Jeremy liked his pesto & linguine too. They also had the bread/parmesan/olive oil situation like at Biaggi's. Oh, and lest I forget--FABULOUS tiramisu. I mean, I usually love tiramisu anyway, but the presentation on this was really beautiful and it was probably one of the better tiramisu's I've had in my life.

Our last stop was going to be the planetarium down there, but they were actually closed. Not because there was no students, but I guess they're doing some remodeling in there or something?

Oh, and in between the dinner and planetarium we were killing time and stopped at Best Buy.... and I ended up buying another computer game I probably don't need. I was pretty excited, though.... it's one of the few adventure games I've seen in a long time, you know, like the old sierra onea, where you try to solve problems and things and it makes a story. I can't remember the name, but the main character IS a sad clown, so you know it's gotta be good.

Then later some of Jeremy's friends were doing some karaoke at a bar. It was nice because we were pretty much the only ones there, so we got to sing all we want. And not hear horrible country songs the way it usually goes in this town. I also got to finally meet one of Jeremy's friends, Luke. The reason it's so funny to finally meet him is I've met his wife, his child, I've been in his house, played his Wii, drank his orange juice, met his brother, and know all his friends at this point. He seems like a cool guy, I believe the reason we never met before is that we have opposite work schedules.

In other news, Jeremy's moved his cat, Kirk, over here, and so far it is slow going. Bunny is getting better, but I can still tell that he's ill at ease with a predator around. But, if I had to introduce him to any cat, Kirk is the one I'd pick. Kirk is a coward too, and so won't go up to 007 and bother him, he's not all hyper like some cats, and is very gentle--he's had experience being around other animals and they really have to push him for him to even begin to try and hurt them back. Oh, and before I get any captain kirk jokes (such as I made when I first learned his name), it's actually similar to the german word for church, which is where Jeremy orig. found the stray little kitten some years ago. So hopefully they get used to each other.

Also, I was worried about my furniture and carpet, as kirk likes to claw a little, but we've gotten these crazy plastic things to put over his claws. So not only does that even further lessen his threat to bunny, it definitely lessens his threat to my property.

I think Kirk moving here makes it pretty much official, even though Jeremy's got some other stuff left to do, Kirk is the most important. And once he and the rabbit are settled, it will be nice--one of our hassles whilst hanging out together was which house to hang at, because if we hung out at his, 007 had to be locked up in his cage all day, and if we spent the day at mine, Kirk is VERY attached to Jeremy and really starts missing him.

So last night I finally saw Kick Ass. I'd been looking forward to it a long time, perhaps the only movie I've been looking forward to seeing in awhile. Anyway, it didn't disappoint. Even despite the presence of Nicholas Cage, who I'm not a big fan of.

My two gripes are that 1) it CLEARLY left the ending open for a sequel (which I've named Kickass II: Rise of McLovin). 2) It did market the trailer on it being ordinary people becoming superheroes. But I'd say 3 of the four superheros were Bruce Wayne rich and had access to Batmanesque gadgets (though those gadgets were somewhat more bloody). But the main guy was reasonably dopey, I guess, though he did get some slight physical upgrades partway through the movie.

But what I liked is that the main guy WAS really ordinary. And pretty stupid to go fighting crime as an ordinary guy. But all the characters seemed to have more heart than the average big budget action characters, and while the main guy wasn't super ugly, he didn't have that hollywood pretty boy aura about him either.

I guess in my head I'm comparing it to Percy Jackson/Lightning Thief which I also saw not too long ago and has some surface similarities in plot. i.e. regular dude ends up becoming super/doing super things. But Percy was ridiculously overpowered, did things no demigod did in the greek mythology upon which it was based. All the characters had that clean, perfect look of movie stars. It was just sort of bland and hard to care about. But, to be honest, I think Jeremy had higher hopes for it than I had. I find it hard to get excited about any movie based on a young adult novel. I mean, the trailers made it look like it might be good, so I had some interest, but meh.

Also: This guy's supposed to be all tough and they named him fucking Percy? That's such a girly name. I think he's supposed to be named after Perseus or something, but still. And half the time people would call him Pers (which sounds like Purse) which is even worse. For a couple days after we saw it Jeremy and I would do high voices and say things like, "I'm Percy! But people call me purse because I hold girl's purses while they go to the bathroom. I like to try on their makeup! Then I go home and masturbate and cry myself to sleep. I have to make sure it's not waterproof makeup though. That's my kryptonite!"

Also, a lot of the mythology was messed up. And like, the entrance to the underworld is under fucking California, Mt. Olympus is in the Empire State Building? Wouldn't you think some of that shit would be in Greece?

You know, I've been meaning to post this for awhile.... my friend Tina has this new blog. She's actually getting paid for it (which I think is awesome) so there are some links to products on there, but it's more like..... product placement in a movie, you enjoy the movie (or in this case, her blog, with lots of amusing personal stories) and just happen to see the product. Though.... I did end up buying something she linked, so maybe the people who pay her are pretty smart!

Anyway, it's called Tales Remembered.

So I felt slightly ashamed of getting a new computer, when my old one is perfectly fine..... buut, I wanted a laptop because my butt hurts from sitting all day at work on those crappy chairs, and you can lay down or sit on something softer when you don't have to sit at a desk.

Anyway, I really do like the laptop. One of the fun things I did tonight was video chat with my friends Ryan and Brooke, it was almost like really hanging out. I actually wouldn't have gotten the webcam if I had a choice, but it was included in the package, so it's cool that I found out I like it. Sort of like a bonus.

So... now they know what the insides of my nostrils and mouth look like. And I got to see them clean up cat pee. I believe this is the ultimate purpose of this sort of technology.