Guh.... stupid facebook. I randomly looked up my friends from high school. And they are all: better looking, married and/or have kids.

I dunno, I don't really want kids, but having kids is a sign you've moved on in your life, you're an actual adult. You're a grown up.

And they all look good, while I look fat and tired. Which, I am fatter and tireder than I was, and I guess they aren't. So there you go.

Anyway, just more reinforcement on me not wanting to go to the upcoming reunion. It's too much money to begin with ($20 bucks, $40 if I want to bring Jeremy to prove that I'm not a total loser and at least have a boyfriend). I'm not poor or anything, I can afford it, but I only want to drop that much money for something I'd really enjoy...... like the Sufjan Stevens concert I recently dropped like 80 bucks on for us to go and see (eee! I'm excited!). And again, it's easy to convince myself that all the dicks who were jerks to me back then have shitty lives now... if I don't actually run into them and find out about their fabulous lives. And old friends I want to see how they're doing? I can just facebook them.... which is what I was doing when I concluded that they are all doing better than I am, just now.

I dunno. I've had a rough couple years (mom passing away, shitty job, etc), but things are beginning to look up a little (great boyfriend, new job) so maybe when next reunion comes up I will feel better about things.